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Im just showing attitude to him now. Sigh, when was the last time we catch a movie? Is it 'The Proposal'? Ohmygod, I feel so failure as a girl. Seriously. Im not complaining but to me it seems it's always'em asking him out for movie. As for me? Im like the second piority. Wait till he watch already, then I start to ask. Im always the one lagging behind. Fcuk it, it's his holiday as well as mine too. Why just cant I just.. Is like I..
Forget it, really. Brooding over it will only upset me more.


I yearning to watch it too, sigh.

Whyy? Why doesnt he always take the initiative to ask? Why?

I'll blog tomorrow.

A denial bliss

Im beat. I cant just rely on poker to be my daily income. In fact, im trying to depend on myself cause I feel as a 17year old girl going to be 18, taking money from parents for money is a very disgrace thing. Maybe not everyone agree with me, ohwell. Kinda desperate for work, serious. I had soooo much time to kill but, im jobless now. My daily routine was, going out, window shopping, find my friends, at night poker, cab home. Good life? HAH. :D
How I wish im a uptown girl. Sigh.

Poker, poker. Right now I do have alittle phobia in playing poker. HAH! I dreamt that I all in and end up I lose all! WTF?! Damn sheryl, her luck is really shinning recently. HAH! Soon it gonna be my turn! Anyway next year should be a disastrous for all the Monkey! LOL, better go and pray for peace and everything, same goes for Dragon. Mm, horse worst. LOL. Goat the best. Sigh, unfair.
Why is there no fairness in this world?


Im still pondering about the HK Stitch show. LOL

Can anyone cut my stomach and dig out all the damn intestine? They are killing me! _|_

Should I off my t.v? Or should I continue using computer? Ohman, let's do alittle update since im still up.

Life so hard to be contented.
Anyway I received my damn EAGLES AWARD! YEAHHHHHHHHH! I have been waiting for this day to come. This time is rather different. The amount they're giving away is 200 instead of 150. In the past it's 150. LOL. I cant care less, since it's freeeee money.

Did spring cleaning today. I shift my study table and throw away MANY THINGS! Like bags and modem? I dont know? Old letters and DISC! Cassettes tapes too! LOL. I need'ta go IKEA soon to buy furniture for my computer and also shell to put books. Im gonna turn my room to a better room for to 'orn-orn' so I wont feel 'packed' and squessy each time I enter. Mm, stomach is soooo f-ing pain now. Sigh, Ben also not around. ): Everytime when I need him, he is not there. When each time I DONT NEED HIM, he will just appear infront of me and start to irritate me. ASS, tough luck. What more can I ask for? For such a irritating boyfriend. -.-
Perhaps i'll just need to bear with it. ):
SAD!

Ahhh, im f-ing jealous. I saw something which I somehow yearn for. Argh, Bennnnnnnnnnn. _|_
Ok, end.

My tears, my blood that I shed for you. </3

Hey, I am damn tired now, all right?! But I cant sleep, dont know why. Sigh. I believe that somehow, some day Love will turn into Hatred. Im not lame nor joking but this is how I feel. Sigh, im browsing someone profile who I used to loved H* alot. Searching deep down in my heart now, I can only find Hatred and not the Love. Ohmy, is it cause of love that make me hate that person so much? Im so afraid, afraid that one day I will hate all my loved ones. I dare not speculate the future nor think about it. I fear that it will only disappoint me.
Can anyone direct me? I seem to be lost.
I am really really afraid of losing, seems more in losing in faith in this *. Ohmy, what am I thinking again?

I miss you dearly.
It's two-thirty now and I cant sleep. I know if I turn in now, I will just flip here and there and not falling asleep. Insomia might be the illness im suffering now. ):

Ohwell, I guess im still brooding over it. I am fucking staring at my computer screen blanky now, urgh! Tomorrow is just another boring day. Guess what? Probably gonna spend my whole day in gym tomorrow. I need work. I have no income and im depending on myself. Bored, maybe i'll just settle down at Hilton Hotel, crew. (Reluctant)
I do look forward to Friday cause 'horn-ney' will end his exam by friday? Today Joy called and asked me to go back NY. Still considering, not very keen though. I feel so stranger even before stepping in. Ohgosh, what is this man?! I have not seeing'em since I left Volleyball. I feel so different now. I mean, my strength and everything seems to have their own limits. But, my personality still doesnt change! I am still that noisy, cheerful and 'auntie' Phebe. (:
(Miss my spag? HAHAH)

THURSDAY!
Ah, I know. Maybe I'll just lock myself whole day at home, do some spring cleaning. All right, settled! Im gonna turn in now.

Baby, promise me you'll always be there, all right?
Sometimes I just feel like digging out my brain so that I can stop letting my imagination run wild.
Fcuk, am I worthy of you? You seems to be so perfect while I dont, serious. ):

Stupid Ric, rushing me off to bed. LOL.
Tomorrow im meeting Shauny, aww! So excited! (:
GYM PARTNERS! WOOT!
Anyway fcuk the Singtel people. Tomorrow im gonna screw'em up! Asshole! Make me make a wasted trip! _|_
Nights. (Learn from Ben)

I think Ben is a IT Genius. He can solve all my computer problem. Maybe that is his hidden talent? I dont know?

Had a last minute outing with 'Fishy and Bally' It's great to see'em man! Everyone changed, to better looking? Darn Fish, lie to me that Hong laser eye. Knn-ed! We went Bugis first followed by Marina Square, changed Ben's stupid pant. -.-
Randy and Hardi joined us too. We had KFC for dinner. Wanted to eat Aston, ):
Randy and I shared the Buddy meal while Hong and Fish ordered indivually. Randy said the Black Pepper Chicken is spicy when I dont feel it spicy, AT ALL?! LOLS. People find it spicy but I dont, that's weird. LOL.
Took some photos?


See, so busy leh. Aiseh, CANMAKE Young Boss. Eating KFC also gotta pick up a few millions phone call. LOL. Anyway he's holding 2phone hor. RICH SIOLLLLL!!!


I dont know why I take this. LOL




Weilun, his face is always so 'steam', because a hot babe is beside him! HAHA. :D






Ruhong










Can see Ruhong?


Randy, Hardi, Ruhong and Weilun

Anyway Ruhong wants me to wish Layping BEST OF LUCK for her upcoming test/exams. LOLS.
Dont understand why is he still doing this. -.-

AHHHH! Im jobless, can anyone seriously hire me? I have been looking for jobs desperately. Still cant find a suitable job for myself.
Yawn, im tired. I only slept for 4hours. Sigh, Sigh.

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Ahh, i miss my darling friends! ):

Yesterday I saw Shaun. I was like stun, guess he become more handsome? LOL. I wouldnt want to talk about the party last night. Anyway it was great, thanks guys!

Have not been blogging since 2weeks? Again, back to square one. im jobless again. Sigh, im gonna look for one soon. Obviously not gonna work as waitress, the work is tiring man and it's not worth the pay. -.-
Anyway I miss working at Tuckshop man. No more motivation, no more handsome guys. Sigh, got my pay and was contented with it. YEAH! (:
Lazyy to blog alr. Buizz!

Can I not blog this few days?

Rot at home the whole day, lazy to go out though. Maybe im a little interested in L4D now after seeing Ben play. It was just shooting all the zombies and the effect was rather good? Idk? Should be playing l4d soon, yeah?
It seems like im locking up myself at home the whole day. But I guess it is also good. Need not spend money. (: Xmas coming soon, gotta save save money. (:And there's still many things I wanne get. Clothes? Accessories? Shoe? Idk? Alot more! Today dad pass me money too and soon im getting my pay. Not alot too, cause it was just a help out. Mm, looking for office job soon. I need air-con! (:

Anyway Ben, when are we eating this?


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I dont wanne smile. Smiling spells trouble, :(

Went to BRP jog as usual. But this time I went with Ben and Ric. Mm, Ric is someone I used to 'eye-candy' but not anymore. Because I realized I love Ben more. Hah, and he get jealous when each time I talk about Ric. Mm, Ric is rather cute but short, for me. :( Okay, anyway today was kinda embarrasing though. They both have to keep on stopping to wait for me. Kinda unlucky. Today was my 'first day' and I dint know im that weak after stop playing sports for 8months. Ohmy, this prove that my stamina is deteriorating and my muscle is gone! Gosh, am I gonna be a real girl from onwards and not touching any sports? Sigh,

Feeling so fcukup now. Sigh, no mood man, for everything. I just dont like it!

Yah, fcuk Qh man! My 4k can just flew away just like this! Darn! _|_
Yesterday cousins came over, including Sihan ok! She's damn cuteeeee! Ohmygod. Anyway she's knows as a 'Destroyer'. Because whatever she see, she'll pull and take. HAHA. One thing good about her is she's afraid of Rubber band and she wont cry, no matter what. HAH. :D And she's DAMN STRONG! She's just 1year old plus and she is able to push open my piano cover. Tsktsk, :/ A greedy pig too. Suprisingly at her age she knows how to speak hokkien. Like 'ai mai' etc. HAH. Cute sia! Mygod! :D

Took some photos for her. (:


Oh, she's just so distracted. ):






See, even sis got a problem trying to get hold of her. Tsk, she want my stitich man. LOLS.

Today dint went to work. Tomorrow also day-off. Yeah, anyway im looking for a new job soon. Mm, (:
Boring day, guess later im going NY. Tsk

Ohyeah! Yesterday went back to school for Volleyball Buffet! It was catering lah! But there are other CCA too, like Wushu and CO? But I guess Volleyball food is the BEST! HAHA. Got Oat meal prawn, Fried rice, Fried prawn noodle. Sweet and sour fish, Sour Chicken, Dessert etc. There's simply toooo much food and I could barely rememeber. Mm, everyone was there! Roughly around 40people are there, even teacher In-Charge. Mr Eric Ong and Mrs Wong. Oh, she bought her kids along! Ohman! Her kids was extremely adorable. Kateline and Alan. (Hopefully I spelt it correctly) HAH!
Anyway I dont know what spell did my juniors cast on Alan. He was extremely attracted by'em! ARGH! He doesnt want me to carry him at all! NOT EVEN ONCE OKAY! NB! Unfair, the world is UNFAIR! HAH.
Anyway it was great. Did some catch up with 'Jiao lian sao'. We chat happily as we crack some jokes and talking about the current team etc, their perfomance compared to the 'history batch'. LOLS.

Took some photos.




HAHA. This is alan! See, there's sooo many extra hands. Everyone trying to attract his attention but still failed. -.-


Hah, Jane! What are you doing here?!


'Family Portrait*

Anyway I was searching for some photos and I happen to saw this! KNN! Which CBK do this sia! HAH. :D


I guess that person must be idolising me! HEHE. :D Just kidding (:

Show you the originl piece!


LOLS

Saw this interesting Teddy Choc packaging while working!


Look at the teddy carefully! It's SHS! HAHA. :D

Signing off, as it's getting boring.

Yesterday was my worst day of allllll my working dayyyss! K** The rain was so big that it almost blow away my stall(Push-cart). Luckily KC is around and we were counted lucky cause we're not directly facing the open area. -.- We get to close shut our 'doors' in time. Mm, what a close shave. Definitely. Hey, im not done yet. Then when KC left, my nightmare start. LOLS. Supplier came, 2okay! So the goods was like all over the floor, big and small boxes. Sweets and snacks are not well display. instead it's all over the cart in messy arrangment. Fcuk! Customers came at random time. While im stocking up the goods, customers came. A minute later, wind blow. And I was fcuking wearing very little yesterday. Darn, tank top kkayss! _|_
Well, it is really my WORST DAY EVER.
Anyway im glad that im working at TP, really. Cause I know what's Poly life about and I manage to saw some of my old friends, I mean like primary school friends? Mygod, they really CHANGE ALOTTTTT! Fortunately only 1 dint change, HAHA. Still so auntie! HAH. Talk to Yan Ying about it and she agree with me. Sigh, people do change. Tsk, talking about 'Change', I guess I've encounter as much as before. Tsk, what's new?

Everyone is born with different destiny, different fate. No man could be contented to what they have.

Thus, so far we have come, it shows something. There is still a thing in between us and it seems to take a longer time to dissolve. ): This shouldnt had happen or should I say this shouldnt have come. ):
I bet everyone yearn to have such life. No worries, maybe some unnecessary worries?

I always take bus69 to work and guess what? I will always pass-by BRP and Idk why I will just recalled about the past. Sigh,
Past had pass. It's time to move on, I guess?
Sometimes it's too late to regret. Just like my studies. If only I knew I would flung my O's so badly, I wouldnt play so crazily during Sec3 all the way until Sec4 N'level.

All right, maybe I should stop here. Idk what am I gonna do now. Kinda bored. :/

SURRRRR-PRISEEEEE! Currently im working now and you guys must be surprise why am I updating my blog, right? HAHHA. :D My new job is COOOOL!! Cause i get to blog, surf youtube, read blogs or even watch show. All I need to do is tend the stall well and serve the customers, most importantly try to push the 'shots' many as possible. haha, mm customers are coming! And im tending the stall alone. SIgh, my miser boss (KC) went to had lunch with his girl. _|_

Sigh, my tummy illness is coming back, fcuk it! And I hate the pain im bearing now. LOLS. seriously.

Anyway I will try to update my blog as soon as possible. M, that's all?

Was complaining to my elder sis about my idiotic sis.

(8:47 PM) FLORA <3:	yo
(8:47 PM) Phebe:	sup? freda f irritating
(8:47 PM) FLORA <3:	y?
(8:47 PM) Phebe:	feel like giving her 1punch on her eye auntie dint get what she wanted to eat then of course auntie dint buy anything else in case she dont like.
(8:48 PM) Phebe:	then when auntie came up, she kpkb. then i help auntie.
(8:48 PM) FLORA <3:	i see
(8:48 PM) Phebe:	then she !@#$%%^ ass her lah!
(8:48 PM) FLORA <3:	aiya, what's new
(8:48 PM) Phebe:	ask her move out of the house lah
(8:48 PM) FLORA <3:	her temper super bad one la
(8:48 PM) Phebe:	go w althea. -.-
(8:49 PM) FLORA <3:	tell her she so smart ownself go down buy lor
(8:49 PM) Phebe:	yah uh